Have you ever been deprived of something special? Have you ever waited and held your breath for a moment like the one in the movie “Mr. Holland’s Opus”? In the movie, a school teacher’s dreams do not turn out as he had envisioned they would. However, his greatest symphony was captured by all the people’s lives he touched, and at the end of the movie, during his retirement, he got to recapture the moments and meditate on his journey as each person celebrated his accomplishments.
Sometimes we wait for the moment and we are deprived of it– robbed of it even. Yes, sometimes it never gets birthed. My husband and I were discussing moments in our life that we were deprived of– proms, graduations, retirement parties, wedding days, books publishing deals, and the list continued. As my husband and I conversed, I began to meditate on Jacob. “When morning came, there was Leah! So Jacob said to Laban, “What is this you have done to me? I served you for Rachel, didn’t I? Why have you deceived me?” Genesis 29:25.
Jacob worked hard. He worked seven years for a wife. Although he was deceived and given Leah, he received Racheal the next day but had to work seven more years for her! Can you imagine making love to someone you have worked seven years for? Kissing them in the darkness and brushing your fingers against their skin, and then realizing in the morning you have been tricked?
I was talking to the Father about things I have worked hard for. People who have deceived me. He began to speak to me about Laban. Laban was family. He was Jacob’s mother’s brother. This man deceived his own nephew on his wedding night.
I began to meditate on deceit and trouble, and The Father continued to use Jacob as an example to me.
“Jacob heard that Laban’s sons were saying, “Jacob has taken everything our father owned and has gained all this wealth from what belonged to our father.” And Jacob noticed that Laban’s attitude toward him was not what it had been.” Genesis 31:1-2 NIV. They even said he had stolen his father’s glory!
This has happened to me recently. Some folks got together and discussed me and certain people’s hearts were not the same towards me afterwards. Sometimes like Jacob, be it family as Laban, business or friends, it’s just time to part ways. It doesn’t mean you don’t love, or forgive, or search your heart for your mistakes in the matter, but sometimes you just have to let go. Move on. Shake dust.
“So Jacob sent word to Rachel and Leah to come out to the fields where his flocks were. He said to them, “I see that your father’s attitude towards me is not what it was before, but the God of my father has been with me. You know that I’ve worked for your father with all my strength, yet your father has cheated me by changing my wages ten times. However, God has not allowed him to harm me. If he said, ‘The speckled ones will be your wages,’ then all the flocks gave birth to speckled young; and if he said, ‘The streaked ones will be your wages,’ then all the flocks bore streaked young. So God has taken away your father’s livestock and has given them to me.” Genesis 31:4-9.
Hashem always warns his prophets and people ahead of time. He always lets them know when danger is coming. The Father revealed to me in a dream, two thieves dressed in black with masks over their faces. They were outside on my patio and they had stolen my umbrella from my patio table. Now an umbrella is a covering. The next night He showed me these same two thieves, and they were stealing things from my house. They wore a mask like cowards. The Father seem to say, “They can’t take your covering. They think they can, but I am your great and mighty shield.”
I heard a lady say, these evil spirits work through people and make them think they know your innermost secrets– the condition of your soul. They make many think that God would give them the power to discover what lies under your skirts. It really is sad when you ponder it. Now my friend did not literally mean “private parts” she meant your soul and your heart condition. Sometimes we tend to think we can look under skirts; we need to stop that unless, like Jacob, we hear from The Father.
Psalm 133:1-3 KJV says,
“Behold, how good and how pleasant it is for brethren to dwell together in unity! It is like the precious ointment upon the head, that ran down upon the beard, even Aaron’s beard: that went down to the skirts of his garments; As the dew of Hermon, and as the dew that descended upon the mountains of Zion: for there the LORD commanded the blessing, even life for evermore.”
This oil of unity ran down Aaron’s beard and down to his skirts and covered him. Our HaShem will cover us. No demonic forces can steal your covering. Only you can remove it and leave your Father for the life the prodigal son chose. Even then, the Father ran to meet him when he came to his senses.
Aren’t we all just trying to become more like Yeshua/Jesus? Can’t we all realize that we are in a battle? “As it is written: “There is no one righteous, not even one.” Romans 3:10. So, while Laban’s heart might have changed towards Jacob, and people’s hearts may have changed towards us…realize we all sin and fall short. Let us take our eyes off our brother or sisters faults and place them on ourselves and our amazing King.
Part ways if you have to, but leave the junk behind.
Rachel failed to do that.
“Now you have indeed gone away because you longed greatly for your father’s house; but why did you steal my gods?” Then Jacob replied to Laban, “Because I was afraid, for I thought that you would take your daughters from me by force. The one with whom you find your gods shall not live; in the presence of our kinsmen point out what is yours among my belongings and take it for yourself.” For Jacob did not know that Rachel had stolen them.” Genesis 31:30-32 NASB.
We must leave sometimes, but we don’t need to bring the junk from the past into our future, and perhaps, we even made it our god? Sometimes we make people gods. Remember, if their heart is not right towards you, it may be time to shut the door. Love, forgive, and leave the rotten stuff behind. Don’t slander, don’t call names and remember we don’t have the power to look under the skirts to know the inward parts of a man’s heart. We must let the Father do that.