“Then Moses said to the LORD, “Please, Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither recently nor in time past, nor since You have spoken to Your servant; for I am slow of speech and slow of tongue.” The LORD said to him, “Who has made man’s mouth? Or who makes him mute or deaf, or seeing or blind? Is it not I, the LORD? “Now then go, and I, even I, will be with your mouth, and teach you what you are to say.” But he said, “Please, Lord, now send the message by whomever You will.” Exodus 4:10-13 NASB.
Many times I have used the verse above as a way to encourage people that The Lord Adonai can use our mouths and fill our mouths with His Words and help us in our times of fear. Jeremiah says almost the same thing when Hashem calls him to be a prophet to the nations.
“Then I said, “Alas, Lord GOD! Behold, I do not know how to speak, Because I am a youth.” Jeremiah 1:6 NASB.
One theory is that Moses problem was he had forgotten how to speak Egyptian during his 40 year sojourn in Midian. Others claim he could not have had a speech impediment because he was High Priest until Aaron was given the position. Since Moses argued with God over and over about how he was not qualified, God overrides his objections and commands him to go.
“The Talmud teaches that God’s wrath always leaves a lasting effect. (Zevachim 102a) In this case, Moses was punished permanently for his recalcitrance by the loss of the priesthood. Had he accepted God’s call, he, not Aaron, would have been the Kohen Gadol, and the priesthood would have gone to his descendants; now it was stripped from him and reserved for Aaron (Rashi).
According to writings, it was not just a one time command to go to Egypt and free the Israelites but a seven-day dialogue. It is believed that Moses did not want to assume superiority over his older brother Aaron, who was also a prophet. Due to Moses constant bantering, he and his brother would trade positions. This makes me think of Jacob and Esau and also “the older will serve the younger.”
Many times in my life, especially in my early days of hearing the voice of The Lord Adonai, I was scared to do what He was telling me and also uncertain that what I was hearing was really from Him.
One day the Lord prompted me to visit a friend’s parents’ home who were very affluent and intimidating. He told me to go speak to my friend’s mother and pray for her son. I looked at my beat up car, my school books, and heaps of papers thrown here and there and was embarrassed to even park in their driveway, let alone pray with them. I made excuse after excuse, even being afraid of the dog they had. About two days later I was prompted to send a card or call an old neighbor I had not seen since childhood. I kept feeling led to do it but didn’t. One night a few days later in the wee hours of the morning I heard this, “You wouldn’t dip 7 times if I told you to dip.” I was instantly awake and grieved in my spirit at my disobedience. I went and bought two cards and in my friends mothers, I told her that I had been disobedient and that I was praying for her son and to please forgive. I have no idea what would have happened in that instance if I would have obeyed but two days later I received a phone call from his mother. She said, “Bonnie I received your card today and was in tears. I had not heard from my son in months and he just called and invited me to lunch. The card and prayers mean so much!” A few days later I received a card from my old neighbor and she said, “Funny that the Lord has put me on your heart as I was just diagnosed with Cancer and have been having Chemo. Your card has blessed me so and please pray for me.”
This was the beginning of me learning I better obey the voice.
Please share any testimonies you may have that are similar.