“Then Moses said to the LORD, “Please, Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither recently nor in time past, nor since You have spoken to Your servant; for I am slow of speech and slow of tongue.” The LORD said to him, “Who has made man’s mouth? Or who makes him mute or deaf, or seeing or blind? Is it not I, the LORD? “Now then go, and I, even I, will be with your mouth, and teach you what you are to say.” But he said, “Please, Lord, now send the message by whomever You will.” Exodus 4:10-13 NASB.

Many times I have used the verse above as a way to encourage people that The Lord Adonai can use our mouths and fill our mouths with His Words and help us in our times of fear. Jeremiah says almost the same thing when Hashem calls him to be a prophet to the nations.

“Then I said, “Alas, Lord GOD! Behold, I do not know how to speak, Because I am a youth.” Jeremiah 1:6 NASB.

One theory is that Moses problem was he had forgotten how to speak Egyptian during his 40 year sojourn in Midian. Others claim he could not have had a speech impediment because he was High Priest until Aaron was given the position. Since Moses argued with God over and over about how he was not qualified, God overrides his objections and commands him to go.

“The Talmud teaches that God’s wrath always leaves a lasting effect. (Zevachim 102a) In this case, Moses was punished permanently for his recalcitrance by the loss of the priesthood. Had he accepted God’s call, he, not Aaron, would have been the Kohen Gadol, and the priesthood would have gone to his descendants; now it was stripped from him and reserved for Aaron (Rashi).

According to writings, it was not just a one time command to go to Egypt and free the Israelites but a seven-day dialogue. It is believed that Moses did not want to assume superiority over his older brother Aaron, who was also a prophet. Due to Moses constant bantering, he and his brother would trade positions. This makes me think of Jacob and Esau and also “the older will serve the younger.”

Many times in my life, especially in my early days of hearing the voice of The Lord Adonai, I was scared to do what He was telling me and also uncertain that what I was hearing was really from Him.

One day the Lord prompted me to visit a friend’s parents’ home who were very affluent and intimidating. He told me to go speak to my friend’s mother and pray for her son. I looked at my beat up car, my school books, and heaps of papers thrown here and there and was embarrassed to even park in their driveway, let alone pray with them. I made excuse after excuse, even being afraid of the dog they had. About two days later I was prompted to send a card or call an old neighbor I had not seen since childhood. I kept feeling led to do it but didn’t. One night a few days later in the wee hours of the morning I heard this, “You wouldn’t dip 7 times if I told you to dip.” I was instantly awake and grieved in my spirit at my disobedience. I went and bought two cards and in my friends mothers, I told her that I had been disobedient and that I was praying for her son and to please forgive. I have no idea what would have happened in that instance if I would have obeyed but two days later I received a phone call from his mother. She said, “Bonnie I received your card today and was in tears. I had not heard from my son in months and he just called and invited me to lunch. The card and prayers mean so much!” A few days later I received a card from my old neighbor and she said, “Funny that the Lord has put me on your heart as I was just diagnosed with Cancer and have been having Chemo. Your card has blessed me so and please pray for me.”

This was the beginning of me learning I better obey the voice.

Please share any testimonies you may have that are similar.



  1. Well, Bon Bon, I don’t know about the Moses thing. It seems to me that he was in every way above Aaron. Aaron was the High Priest but Moses was like an anointed king! He was the big dog in my estimation. Hand-picked by the Lord to deliver the people. I’m not the scholar you and the Jewish sages are, so I’m just going on opinion, which is not worth that much!

    But I can testify as to my own struggle with obeying the Lord. I had rejection issues and fear of man’s face. I was called to do God’s thing in a BIG way in my own small hometown. It wasn’t easy. I was made fun of, along with the friends that gathered with me. Especially the men, who were essentially following a woman’s lead.

    In the very beginning, before I really understood how all that was in my future, I did know that God wanted to use me in prophetic speaking to people individually. (Doing it from the pulpit came later.) I knew what I was going to do in that area and wanted to, but at the same time, I didn’t know how I would find the courage. I was still green as a gourd when I went to my first Aglow retreat. I was very excited and ready to receive from the Lord.

    That first night I got to the chapel while most everybody else was still in the chow hall. The musicians and singers were warming up. I sat close to the back, not sure why. I was praying with my eyes open (you know — watch and pray), for me to be receptive to what God had for me and the speaker to deliver an anointed message. There was a woman sitting several rows ahead of me. The Lord said, “See that woman?” I said, “Yes. Father.” He said, “I want you to go over to her and tell her I love her.” I thought to myself (as if He couldn’t hear me), that’s the dumbest “word” from God there ever was — that can’t be His voice. Then I said, “Lord, that can’t be your voice. You love everybody!” He repeated what He wanted my to say.

    I sat there another few minutes, and thought, Oh well, even if it’s just me and not God, what harm can it do to tell someone God loves them? I went over to her, came up behind her and leaned over. I whispered in her ear. “The Lord told me to tell you . . .” She began to weep profusely. I put my hands on her shoulders and prayed silently. When she composed herself somewhat, she said, “I was sitting here asking Him how could He possibly love someone like me.” Then the boo-hooing resumed. I waited a bit and said, “Well, the why doesn’t matter, but now you know for sure that He does, and He sent that love by special delivery from a stranger so you would not doubt His love for you!”

    I left her there in His presence as people were already streaming in and filling the pews. I saw some of my friends and joined them in a pew closer to the front. I never saw that woman again that weekend or ever. I really didn’t get much of a look at her face. But I have never forgotten her or the lesson I learned about obeying God with the most simple message that you don’t even think is a message! ~crm


    1. Thank you for sharing that testimony! It is so true. We must always try and obey the voice no matter how insignificant it can seem or how small. By you obeying Him that woman was blessed and healed in her woundedness. Thank you for everything you wrote above. I too believe Moses was, as God said, “Then the LORD said to Moses, “See, I have made you like God to Pharaoh, and your brother Aaron will be your prophet.” Exodus 7:1.


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