The post below was originally posted on Facebook, but due to the many comments received I decided to post it here.
“As one who takes away a garment in cold weather, or vinegar on soda, so is one who sings songs to a heavy heart.” Psalm 25:20.
This post is uncensored. I’ve been very depressed lately. Having been raised in a jubilant Christian atmosphere, I was taught depression was a sign of demons, not having peace due to a backslidden condition, a spiritual weakness, a sign that one did not have the Holy Spirit, a sign of torment due to sin, and on and on. Often, I heard responses to people who were depressed, from well-meaning folks. They quoted scriptures like, “Weeping endures for a night, but joy comes in the morning.” or The joy of the Lord will be your strength,” “You need to praise Him in your storm.” I am sure most people had good intentions behind their words, but I would compare it to someone telling a grieving family member at a funeral that God needed another angel in heaven and that’s why He took their family member. (Hogwash!) We’ve been made to believe that if we are depressed we can’t tell anyone because it’s a secret like catching a Sexually transmitted disease. It’s not positive. It’s not of HaShem.
While pondering this, I wrote a blog called, “A day The Lord has Made” and touched briefly on the topic. I just want to say something and please understand when I do, that I am not against joy, as a matter of fact, I need some but everyone in the Bible was depressed with a capital D at some point. And let me just start by naming a few. Cain kills Abel and Adam and Chavah not depressed? Noah watches all life die and plants a vineyard and gets drunk. Joseph was thrown into a pit by his own family, placed in prison for something he did not do, and shackled. Jacob was told his son was killed by a wild-beast and when he finally reaches Egypt and Joseph, he tells the Pharoah, that few and difficult have the years of his life been.
Job was depressed and asked Yahweh to remove his birthdate from the calendar. Jeremiah was so depressed he wrote a whole book called Lamentations. King David’s son tries to kill him, Saul tries to kill him and to just speak of the time he danced before the Lord Adonai would be insane. Naomi was so depressed after burying her husband and her sons she said, “don’t call me Naomi call me “Bitter!” John the Baptist was depressed and so was Paul on many occasions, but he said He finally learned how to be content no matter what.
If no one ever was depressed or fleeing Moab, no one would ever reach Boaz and the house of Bread. Staying in the depression is the problem. Wilderness journeys have a purpose…”You shall remember all the way which the LORD your God has led you in the wilderness these forty years, that He might humble you, testing you, to know what was in your heart, whether you would keep His commandments or not.” Deut. 8:2. The children of Yisrael left Egypt and entered not into the promise land but a dry weary land of cracked earth and bitter waters. Our location is a big factor.
In a years time, I have gained over 20 pounds, been in and out of the hospital and been pumped with more solu-medrol than should ever be allowed. I haven’t slept well since I landed here and I’m extremely tired. Some days the depression makes all your favorite things dull and lifeless. The giants look bigger than the grapes right now, but I will continue to trust my Abba Father, my Elohim, and I’ll leave you with what Jacob said when he blessed Josephs sons, “The God before whom my fathers Abraham and Isaac did walk, the God who has fed me all my life long to this day,…Gen 48:15… My God has fed me my whole life, and He has not left me, nor you! I am sharing this for anyone else who is dealing with the same in hopes that they realize many people were depressed and that this too shall pass.